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Long weekend. Went to my big aunt's house warming on Deepavali. Have no idea why her daughter sold the 4-room and bought the old 3-room they had before. No idea. Renovation not as great as I have thought to be. Today went to Jurong Point with parents to shop. Haha~ Two busy days. Tomorrow going to my grandma's house. Long weekend gone just like that. So fast, it seems like I didn't do much stuff. Not feeling happy these few days, don't know why either. Just not happy. Nothing bad happened so that's why don't know why. I can be happy over some things for a while and then back to my 'unhappy mode' once I'm alone. Quite a bad thing, mood swing so sudden. But can't help it, it's quite auto. Can be happy around friends and colleagues, of course if we are talking about happy or funny stuff. But once I'm alone and nothing to do, my 'unhappy mode' is on. I don't wish to be like that too. I should just keep myself busy. Now at work is surrounded by those couples or those attached or even married. It seems like I'm the only one not attached yet. It feels quite sour sometimes when you see these people but you can't blame anyone or anything or myself, because you can't control over this kind of thing. If it can be controlled, tell me who's controlling it. I will go question that person, why let me be alone for so long. I want someone who I can rely on, someone to hold my hand or just hug me when I'm feeling down. Will I meet my 'someone' soon? Ya, take it easy. Maybe it will come when I don't desire it. Haha. |
This is my life.12:31 AM