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haiz.. today is a horrible day for me.. 3 quiz in one day.. first is the phy quiz.. stupid lor.. 5 qns but 10 choices per qn.. i onli noe how to answer 2.. sian.. next is the material science quiz.. this one is my worst of the day.. scored 55 out of 100.. i studied very hard lor.. i got 55!! i cant believe it.. i am really pissed off about myself.. i cant believe i did so badly.. it pulled down my grade lor.. thats means to get A my exam muz be really good.. sian lor.. exam sure very difficult de.. how to score lidat.. haiz.. now feel very lost.. the last quiz is the IPC quiz.. this one still ok.. flip notes den noe le.. plus got friends around to help.. so still ok.. i am still very pissed abt my material science quiz.. i am really disappointed about my results.. another bad thing is that next wk i got another quiz which is the life science quiz.. a killer quiz for me.. luckily my neighbour's friend coming over to help me with it.. or else i am going to die le.. how i can i do when i dun understand the lectures.. idiot ar.. i feel like an idiot.. why am i scoring such marks and feeling so lost? actually i wanted to cry to destress.. but cry also no use lor.. cant make me understand the lectures or change my marks.. however, i am feeling quite demoralized after the material science quiz.. it sort of like take away my motivation to study.. haiz.. what else can i do? haiz.. really very tired le.. =( |
This is my life.8:08 PM
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hihi.. actually i think i recovered le ba.. i didnt think of him le.. maybe bcuz exams is near.. i kept thinking abt exams.. haiz.. stress.. 4 papers.. sounds little but alot of things to study.. sian sian sian.. tml public holiday.. sian.. whole day in hall studying.. haiz.. why is life full of studying? haha.. my dad gg to collect the new house's keys.. den start renovation on mon.. by 22 nov, the whole renovation is completed.. so after exams, i can move back straight away.. but the fees will be charged until 7 dec.. so u see i can take my time to pack.. anyway.. i think i am seriously lag behind of my revision.. haiz..wat to do.. so many things to study.. den i always get so sleepy lor.. haiz.. study = sleep.. ok lah.. go back study le.. night.. |
This is my life.11:14 PM
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i am very confused. who? where? when? how? i dunno how to understand these four questions. really very confused. always thinking about him but is he the one for me.. and does he know that i'm thinking of him.. so so confused. knew each other for a long time.. but yet didnt haf much to talk about.. haiz.. why so sad de? friend asking me who i need.. i sometimes wonder if i really need him.. does he understand at all? sian.. this kind of feeling is affecting me.. in the past, i see couples around holding hands, i feel nothing.. but now, the situation is different.. i am jealous of them.. envy them.. haiz.. i noe this kind of thing cant rush, need to wait for the right one.. and i am also the kind that dun dare to take risk.. so i never had a relationship.. i am afraid of feeling hurt.. i dun express my feelings.. yes.. they may noe i am sad but because of what, they may not know.. so u see.. i am such an introvert.. keep everything to myself.. i am also afraid of hurting others.. haiz.. why is love so complicated? but it is because it is complicated that makes it so special.. |
This is my life.10:14 PM
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hihi.. very stress recently.. maybe due to the exams.. all the revising is killing me.. like not enough time for revision.. sian lor.. study life is lidat.. actually i want someone to be by my side.. but there isn't now.. i do feel lonely sometimes.. wish someone can be with me when i needed him.. i really need him.. why why? why am i so weak? i am always thinking abt him.. how's he doing? haiz.. wonder if he read my blog.. he so busy, think didnt read ba.. anyway, miss him alot.. haiz.. |
This is my life.3:40 PM
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for this week, not feeling very good.. not i sick.. i also dunno why.. sometimes i feel so moody.. dun wan to go anywhere, dun wan to do anything.. lucky no one realised that.. i feeling stress also.. exams coming.. my first exam in uni.. ya.. 'so what?' someone may ask.. i never haf late papers before.. in the past, exams does not give so much stress like now.. maybe now in uni, more competitions and with this GPA system, i feeling more stress.. of cuz, with my own expectations also.. i planning for this 4 yrs a 2nd upper or even 1st cls.. is it possible? sometimes i ask myself.. i really dunno the ans and i dun dare to think.. i'm afraid with my standard, i cant do it.. haiz.. y is life so difficult? maybe i shld be contented with what i haf now.. at least i enter uni.. ok.. enough nagging le.. i sometimes really puzzled about how guys think.. i am always guessing at what is going on in their mind.. ppl said that girls' thinking is more complicated.. is that true? i dunno.. the way of thinking for each sex is always a very interesting topic.. for me at least.. i am interested in knowing how their mind works.. so that i can understand them better.. haiz.. |
This is my life.3:36 PM
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wah.. today another long day for me.. heehee.. today saw my eye candy again.. heehee.. anyway went cant 11 for dinner.. because of kb lah.. went to his room to see the arrangements.. wah.. like japanese style lidat.. haha.. he also got reharsel also.. he played keyboard den his two friends sing.. the song is qian li zhi wai.. the one that sang the fei yu qin part right.. really very good.. i was stunned when i heard his singing lor.. really very nice.. really like fei yu qin.. very similar.. very nice.. after their practice, stayed a bit longer to listen to kb play keyboard.. very nice lor.. haiz.. i forgotten all the things i have learnt for my keyboard le.. i only learnt like around 1 to 2 months only.. basic only.. which means i only know children songs.. haha.. still cant coordinate my left and right hand and also cant read the score so quickly.. muz figure out first.. haha.. i am also a music-idiot.. haha.. ok.. i go slp le.. night! |
This is my life.12:56 AM
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hihi.. back at hall.. need to study for tml math quiz.. haven do mat sci tut also.. dunno how to do.. haiz.. sian ah.. went to IMM on sat.. sian loh.. do nothing de.. just shop ard with my sis.. my parents are shopping for stove ar, lights ar.. all that.. very boring so me n my sis went ard IMM.. but so sian lor.. haiz.. ok lah.. go study now.. bb.. |
This is my life.9:47 PM
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for the past four days, i saw him everyday.. haha.. this week so so so happy lah.. today i got to know jo better, i mean abt his temper lah.. so shocked when he said those words.. but of cuz lah, who will stand it if someone keep saying the same thing again and again.. ppl say me second time i already want to ignore that person le.. sometimes it is very irritating.. if the things said is negative.. i welcome positive comments.. but dun reject negative comments, i only listen to it once.. haha.. i always lidat.. if that person want to say it again, ignore or just keep quiet.. anyway, most of the time i am quiet.. haha.. just now i was looking thru the camp photos.. think abt the times we have together and i realized i really missed those times where we played, screamed, cheered n laughed together.. it was such a fun time.. wun forget it.. it's the first time that i played until lidat.. alot of my first time.. first time go ubin, first time go chalet (ya.. i anti-social de..), first time join something when i dunno anybody.. actually i am quite anti-social de.. quiet, dun talk, dun smile, didnt do anything, got time den slp or study.. haiz.. if i suddenly changed, think my friend will think something happed to me le.. haha.. |
This is my life.3:12 PM
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hihi.. i saw my eye candy twice.. yesterday and today.. we chat a bit also.. haha.. so happy.. birthday saw him.. but he dunno that yesterday is my bdae.. i never told him also.. haha.. but anyway i am so happy lor.. although dun haf big big celebrations, but i got see him is enough le.. i so happy yesterday night lor.. so shuang.. haha.. ok go slp le.. tml 830 lecture.. night.. |
This is my life.12:43 AM
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hey hey.. today my bdae.. heehee.. so happy.. although still studying, but i'm so happy.. haha.. in the morning, when i left for the next tut, i left my ipc textbk.. i forgot to take.. when i went back to take, it's gone.. but luckily it is with jo.. i tot it's taken by someone else.. scare me.. i'm so worried.. this teaches me to check i got everything b4 leaving.. haha.. later still lecture.. the ipc lecture lor.. so will slp awhile b4 gg.. another thing.. today the weather super bad.. so much haze.. hai.. muz drink more water den wun get sick.. poor weather.. ok lar.. i go rest now.. bye.. |
This is my life.3:04 PM
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haiz.. so fast.. recess wk over le.. haiz.. why is it gone so quickly? i have enjoyed my recess wk.. slp, eat, watch tv.. but i did managed to finish my tuts and my lab report.. haha.. quite difficult to achieve that with all the distractions around me.. haha.. tml is my bdae.. i wonder wld anyone remember.. i always hope my army friends will remember.. they can give a call or even a sms will do.. but i dunno.. c tml whether they remember ba.. but high possibility is that they wun.. haiz.. guys.. we r friends since pri sch so of cuz i m closer to them den other guys.. but we dun tok much to each other.. haiz.. i dunno lah.. sometimes i feel that we are close but sometimes we are not.. haha.. i also dunno how to describe the relationship between us.. haha.. they are quieter than me lor.. so when i with them, can say i did most of the talking.. haiz.. haiz.. who will remember my bdae leh? sometimes i feel that i'm not in the grp.. is it i too quiet? or i really out? it's strange.. i noe the problems lies with me.. but i really dunno what to do with it.. i cant help it if i feel this way.. haiz.. dunno lah.. just thinking about it makes me feel stress.. haiz.. tok about my recess week ba.. like what i said.. slp, eat, watch tv.. haha.. everyday is the same.. haha.. my parents and my sis gave me a new earphone.. cuz i wanted one.. n they really bought one for me.. haha.. n today breakfast is a birthday cake.. haha.. chocolate one.. haha.. so nice.. haha.. den this afternoon, my sis friend come.. about insurance de.. tok to my father from 230 to 7.. actually my father did most of the toking.. haha.. i already sian le.. i slept from 4 to 630.. woke up still see him.. hai.. yesterday, my sis came back n kept nagging.. saying what her friend say something bad abt her appearance.. her hair.. her dressing sense.. den she kept syaing she's gg to dye hair, rebond hair, buy new clothes, wear contact lens, wear high heels.. what the hell.. gg to use alot alot of money lor.. i wonder what colour will she be dying.. haha.. hai.. this whole recess nv see friends.. nv see my eye candy.. haiz.. sian.. oh.. i did go out with one of my jc friends.. we went back to pj to visit teachers.. we were so shocked to see no school lor.. den we found out from the teachers that that day is the consultation day.. haha.. no wonder lar.. anyway.. i finished what i want to say le.. hope tml my ppl will remember my bdae.. i mean my friends lar.. haha.. good night! =) |
This is my life.11:58 AM
