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this post will be different from the above post.. it's not about the Istana trip anymore.. it's more to the sentimental side le.. in fact right now, i am feeling moody.. not the moody kind that wanted to scold someone.. no.. just moody.. maybe crying may help.. but how?? maybe screaming can help too.. but where?? maybe blogging can help.. so here i am.. trying the last resort to spill it all out.. why am i feeling moody?? i really don't know.. because of the shocking news i have heard lately?? well, maybe.. they are quite shocking.. if not why refer them as "shocking news".. but i think there's more to this moody feeling.. but what?? hai.. been imagining some impossible things.. (which i won't say it here and don't ask me..) what will happen if this happen?? what will happen if that happen?? what happen if i react like this?? what happen if i reach like that?? these kind of questions kept popping into my mind.. sometimes i also think of how i would react if people offended me?? will i be angry?? if i'm angry, what will i do to that person?? hit him?? scold him?? scream at him?? ignore him?? think of ideas to irritate him the next time?? or nothing to do at all and just let him continue to bully me?? which will be my choice?? maybe this may sound stupid to some of you.. why do i 自讨苦吃?? for no matter, why do i think so much?? ya.. true also to say it this way.. but i really hope i can get some answers from myself.. so what's the answer then?? or is there no answer at all?? or i can only discover the answer when that situation happens?? is that it?? don't know.. really don't know.. |
This is my life.12:17 AM
