exams finally over.. finally i can sleep for all i want.. but i am not pig ok??

been receiving shocking news since last week.. of course i won't write it here.. u think i really pig ar?? this is their privacy and my privacy too.. some of the news belongs to me also ma.. i really don't know how to react when i received those news.. especially when it happens to people beside me.. so close to me.. i have never thought of these kind of things happening.. nope.. never..

some of my friends said that i am mature.. but am i really mature?? am i mature in a way i can handle my own problems and my friends' calmly and intelligently?? do i have the ability to do that?? come to think of it.. i would hope that i can just forget about everything and just don't care.. you may say i am selfish or whatever.. but hey!! who wants to be a busybody in other people's matter?? i don't want!! and i'm sure no one wants..

sometimes i also thought am i as mature as what i thought myself to be.. am i?? friends, do you think i am mature?? hmm.. can't give myself a satisfactory answer.. actually after listening to all the shocking news i have heard since last week, i don't think i am as mature as i thought myself to be.. i don't i have what it takes to be mature.. mature in many areas.. in school.. in my circle of friends.. in family.. i think my parents don't think i am mature ba.. well, i'm not sure.. really really.. mature or not mature??

besides being mature, the courage to do things is another matter.. what do i mean?? ask yourself.. do you have the courage to do things that other people think you won't do?? yes, no?? really.. can't get any answer?? for this question, my answer is again no.. i do not have such courage.. people may think although i am the quiet type, but when i am angry i will do anything.. but is that really me?? in the first place, is the quiet side really me?? people always says a person has two sides.. i believe i have too.. the good side and the bad side.. but how bad is my bad side i don't wish to know.. being bad is not something to be proud of right?? ok, i think i move away from my topic le.. or did i?? being bad is another type of courage, isn't it?? not many people can be bad.. haha.. true.. so who can be bad in that case?? difficult to answer, isn't it??

above is just some of my random thoughts.. do not think that i am having any troubles with my life or what.. no.. just having those thoughts after listening to those shocking news.. well, who do not have difficulties??

Phrase for the day:

"Always believe these difficulties are stepping stones for you to be closer to success!! "