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haf been studying the whole day.. haiz.. wat a boring day.. one month more to exam.. and i am just starting only.. the speed is also very slow.. i hope i can make it for this exam.. meaning scoring some As.. in order to pull up my GPA.. haiz.. maths is the first paper and i have not begin revising.. i haf to prepare for my german oral also.. haiz.. which is on the 9th of april.. haiz.. which is like 3 weeks from now.. haiz.. sure die one loh.. lucky su le.. but need to get at least a C to get the S.. haiz.. now depend on the final paper.. if that one die, den gone liao.. haiz.. even maths and chem which is my strongest subject, i am not confident about it.. how can i be confident with the rest of the subjects.. haiz.. i guess those reading my blog will be so stress by it.. cuz i only tot about school work and stress.. but if i dun tok abt this, i will write abt my feelings le.. den it will become sentimental le.. haha.. i dunno why i feel lonely easily.. i really want to know that i am of some importance to someone.. it really will give me the motivation to carry on.. sounds like i want to commit suicide lidat.. haha.. but really, sometimes u feel like u wasting your life.. sometimes i am asking myself why am i so lonely.. what is the point of living? what do i want to achieve in life? just grades? just the cert? just the honours degree? wat else i want to achieve? really bothering me.. i tot i will become more sociable in uni.. ya.. i speak more now as compared to the past.. but am i sociable? or i am still so anti-social? i think only my friends will noe the ans.. probably those that noe me from the past until now.. they will see the difference in me.. but actually, i think i didnt change much.. except i am taller, fatter now.. haha.. lol.. i have decided for the next 1 month, i must study hard so tat during the 3 months break, i can play with no worries.. yes.. i must do that.. dun slp anymore in lectures.. decrease the no of naps, increase my efficiency for studying.. so maybe i wun blog as often as i am doing now.. haha.. anyway not many ppl reading also.. haha.. so ok.. back to studying now.. i must get some As for this exam.. jia you!! =) |
This is my life.11:09 PM