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this week, no school.. stay in hall whole day study.. very stress ar.. haiz.. why like cannot study finish de? lidat very stress lor.. sian ar.. haiz.. i have been forcing myself not to think abt him.. but end up kept thinking.. he didnt noe.. i never told him.. i dun wan to change the way we are now.. although right now we r just friends.. sometimes i think this is just temporary, i will like someone else de.. i will meet someone in uni de.. but just cant help thinking abt him.. is it love? i dun tink so.. but if it is, it is one-sided love.. haiz.. i myself also not sure whether i really like him anot.. sometimes really missed him.. sometimes want to talk to him, want to see him.. haiz.. why is this happening now? why not happen in jc when i can c him everyday and then i can confirm whether i like him or not? why now? is it because i want someone to be there for me? is it because i feeling lonely? i dunno.. i really dunno.. actually i noe he's not the one for me, but i just missed him.. missed the times with him.. and now to think about it, we only went out less than 5 times this year.. how pathetic.. even friends went out more than that lor.. very difficult to ask him out.. wait for him to ask me.. can wait lor.. he will never do that.. he even forget my birthday.. we knew each other for ard 7, 8 yrs le ba.. he still forget.. haiz.. sian ar.. i hope exams will be over soon.. so that i can relax, go out play all i want.. meet up with friends to chit chat.. maybe meet up with him also.. haiz.. sian.. haiz.. go back study now.. sian ar!!! |
This is my life.11:38 PM
