Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Haha.. finally can use email to blog.. faster and easier.. haha.. I lazy lah.. haha.. anyway.. last time my maths paper is very terrible.. everyone thinks that it is a very very difficult paper.. so I guess dun worry so much ba.. haha.. ytd is my life science paper.. well.. still can do.. tml will be physics paper.. this one oso quite jialat.. dun understand this dun understand that.. dunno how to get A lor.. haiz.. now studying for physics.. rest awhile first.. stress lor.. haiz.. k k.. back to study le.. cya!
This is my life.3:38 PM
Hmm.. why like cannot publish de? Let me try again..
This is my life.12:47 AM
Testing using email to write blog.. haha.. cya!
This is my life.12:11 AM
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
hihi.. today finished reading 'defects' and 1 maths paper.. hmm.. 10 woke up, went down for breakfast, came back hoping i can do alot.. but i went back to slp after 15 mins.. haha.. until 1 pm.. haha.. at least i finished 2 things during the afternoon until 1130pm lor.. haha.. although slow lar.. haha.. tml i planning to read diffusion n maybe phase diagrams and practise some maths qns.. hmmm.. i wonder if i can finish.. haha.. jia you.. all those who reads my blog, if u r having exam now, wish you luck! oso if u dun need ur luck, u can pass them to me.. i need luck! haha..
just now chat wif a jc friend.. he's in army lah.. in camp somemore lor.. use com to msn.. haha.. sad lor.. 1030 slp.. 530 wake up.. i still slping at tat time lor.. but i slp v late.. like 12 or 1am.. haha.. study until so late.. haha.. actually we didnt tok much during jc.. haha.. actually i am v stress now.. so blog hoping to relieve some stress.. haha.. hope it works! i also dunno.. exam starting this fri.. omg.. y so fast? although is maths lah, i haf confidence lah.. but hor, still quite scared lor.. scared i cant rmb the formulas den forget the method.. haiz.. sian.. shit lah..
ok lah.. good night.. go back study a while b4 gg slp.. night night.. =)
This is my life.1:04 AM
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
hihi.. started studying since 10am.. of cuz got rest lah.. not robot lor.. haiz.. but study still think of him.. haiz.. want to meet him but dun dare to ask.. sometimes wonder if he read my blog before.. will he know that he is the one? hmm.. not sure.. i didnt write alot abt him.. i mean abt which sch he went lah, n blah blah blah.. i juz said how much i missed him only.. haha.. ya.. i really missed him.. haiz.. wats the use when he didnt know it? sometimes want to ask him what he think about me but didnt dare to do so.. the time we chat on msn is so short.. only wkends.. den sometimes i didnt online on wkend oso.. haiz.. sian.. k lar.. go back study my material sci liao.. bb..
This is my life.12:33 AM
Sunday, November 12, 2006
hihi.. right now i am listening to chong qing's zhou gong jiang gui.. scary loh.. dunno shld i carry on? haiz.. later dun dare to slp.. i think today's one shld be quite scary.. ya.. really lor.. very scary.. omg.. i dun believe i dare to listen finish the whole story.. omg.. omg.. omg.. listening to ghost story at night and alone is a very crazy thing to do.. i must be a crazy person.. actually i typed blog while listening is to prevent me from thinking too much.. haha.. hope the next story wun be so scary.. everytime i listen, my roomate is with me.. although she didnt listen lah, but at least i noe someone is with me.. haiz.. but now, she at home den me alone.. sian.. the second story quite ok lah.. haha.. maybe i listen alone so i feel quite scared.. haha.. ok lah.. go back study le..
This is my life.12:12 AM
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Hihi. Recently, study study can suddenly feel sad de.. I dunno wat happen also.. just feel sad.. den cant concentrate also.. haiz.. wat happened? Especially physics.. all the concepts are making me sick.. why all so complicated de? 1 more wk and exam’s here.. maths paper.. I haven start my maths paper lah.. sian.. although I haf confidence in my maths but still need practice de ma.. haiz..
Tml also not gg back home.. just gg out to haf dinner with parents den come back hall again.. sian right.. but wat to do.. need to study.. actually got another reason but tat one quite complicated to understand so forget it lah..
I really dunno wat can make me happy now.. not like I super sad lah.. haiz.. I also dunno wat happened to me.. sometimes feel like crying.. is it bcuz of stress or other things? I always tot I am strong.. I can be alone.. but it doesn’t seems like that to me.. I want someone to be by my side.. I want some comfort.. haiz.. who can be the one to give me all these? Or maybe wat I need now is sleep.. haiz. Dunno lah.. everyday wake up, first thing is study.. other than study is still study.. uni life is so sian.. got freedom also no use.. sian..
i just hope that the physics paper can be similar to the past yr paper or easier so that i can handle.. haiz.. where got such good thing.. haiz.. is there any good thing to mention? let me think.. got one.. mon life sci CA i got 21/30.. not bad right.. first time in life sci i can get so high.. but i have calculated.. if i want to get 70/100 for overall, my exam i need to get 50 qns correct which is out of 70 lah.. u say how to get.. sian.. the physics i really dunno how lor.. both CAs is already gone le.. the exam.. how to score.. sian ar.. why we make things so complicated?? haiz.. i not gg to chiong today.. i gg to sleep early.. tml den chiong.. today dunno y so tired.. haiz..
This is my life.8:24 PM
Sunday, November 05, 2006
hihi.. just got a call from mother.. they not coming back for dinner.. i have to settle it on my own.. sian lor.. another thing.. my necklace that rose came out le.. sad ar.. haiz.. i haf a life sci quiz tml.. sian lor.. dunno what qns they will be asking.. i am damn bad at all these lor.. plus exam in 2 wks times.. maybe i shld say in ard 12 days time.. stress ar.. i feel that i haf not finish studying.. like haven prepared lidat.. feeling terrible.. haiz.. hope exam faster end den i can enjoy myself.. ok lar.. go back study le.. bb..
This is my life.4:19 PM
Saturday, November 04, 2006
now back at home.. no mood to study yet still need to force myself to study.. haiz.. yesterday, i went to my friend's room to console her.. she just broke up with her bf.. sad for her.. gave her a hug.. hope she will work hard for exam.. that makes me think maybe i shldnt think so much abt having a relationship right now.. but anyway.. who will like me in uni? nobody.. ok.. i admit i have low esteem.. i really do.. sometimes i dunno.. hai.. sometimes i want someone to talk to.. but i cant think of anyone.. really.. no one.. i am so pathetic.. sometimes i feel sad for myself.. i dunno y.. i can suddenly feel very sad and depressed but dunno the reason.. i dunno is it because exams is coming or other reasons.. but that sad feeling kept coming back.. i also wat thing makes me feel sad.. i really dunno.. so confused sometimes.. i noe only studying can make me forget everything.. but i still missed him.. haiz.. what can i do? i told myself to forget him.. i mean for now lah.. but hor.. haiz.. one-sided love is so sad.. i shld really stop all this nonsense.. haiz.. it seems so hard..
This is my life.12:30 AM
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
this week, no school.. stay in hall whole day study.. very stress ar.. haiz.. why like cannot study finish de? lidat very stress lor.. sian ar.. haiz.. i have been forcing myself not to think abt him.. but end up kept thinking.. he didnt noe.. i never told him.. i dun wan to change the way we are now.. although right now we r just friends.. sometimes i think this is just temporary, i will like someone else de.. i will meet someone in uni de.. but just cant help thinking abt him.. is it love? i dun tink so.. but if it is, it is one-sided love.. haiz.. i myself also not sure whether i really like him anot.. sometimes really missed him.. sometimes want to talk to him, want to see him.. haiz.. why is this happening now? why not happen in jc when i can c him everyday and then i can confirm whether i like him or not? why now? is it because i want someone to be there for me? is it because i feeling lonely? i dunno.. i really dunno.. actually i noe he's not the one for me, but i just missed him.. missed the times with him.. and now to think about it, we only went out less than 5 times this year.. how pathetic.. even friends went out more than that lor.. very difficult to ask him out.. wait for him to ask me.. can wait lor.. he will never do that.. he even forget my birthday.. we knew each other for ard 7, 8 yrs le ba.. he still forget.. haiz.. sian ar.. i hope exams will be over soon.. so that i can relax, go out play all i want.. meet up with friends to chit chat.. maybe meet up with him also.. haiz.. sian.. haiz.. go back study now.. sian ar!!!
This is my life.11:38 PM
